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Recycled Feelings
By Laurie | August 22, 2011
I am someone who hates to settle for mediocrity. The thought of simply meeting expectations makes me cringe. I have never understood people who don’t strive to exceed in their daily tasks or to go the extra mile, even if those tasks are mundane to begin with. I go above and beyond not because I want the recognition, but because I feel like it’s the right thing to do. I always thought that kind of work ethic would eventually be appreciated and rewarded in the long run. Obviously I don’t expect (or want) applause and pats on the back for every single thing I do, however I feel like I do make a lot of worthwhile contributions that often go without any type of acknowledgement at all. It is nice to be appreciated and not feel like your time, skills and life are ultimately being wasted.
I have come to the conclusion that I absolutely must be doing something wrong. Maybe I feel this way because I’m 33 and my life is nothing like I imagined it would be, despite trying. I have a pointless degree that has gotten me virtually nowhere, and I am surrounded by others who are negative (it’s unfortunately contagious by the way) and have taken stagnation to a whole new level than I have ever seen before. Still, I want more. I want to be successful, and most of all I want to be happy. I just don’t know how to get those things.
Not to be misunderstood, I am especially lucky and blessed with a wonderful family and caring friends. I think I am just in a profession and personal funk. Quarter life crisis maybe?
It’s funny because I remember feeling this way before (and fairy often these days), and looked back through my blog just now adter writing the above only to find this post where I said pretty much the same thing almost exactly a year ago.
Anyone else go through this? Is there a solution?
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